My heart hurts.
I don’t like endings. I don’t think anybody does. Especially when you know the end wasn’t supposed to come this soon. Or this abruptly.
On Tuesday (Monday for people in the USA) the news broke that SourceFed, SourceFed Nerd and People Be Like were all getting cancelled. I did not take it well at all. I stopped functioning for about two hours before I had to pull myself together because I had a project due on Friday (today).
I said up there that I know the end wasn’t supposed to come this soon but it’s more like I felt like it shouldn’t have. I say that because I do feel that SourceFed had found their groove again. Even Ava (Gordy, SourceFed host) said it in the final podcast. They really hit their stride, both the hosts and the audience (for the most part) were in a good place. It’s hard to see that get cut short.
It’s also hard to see something I love so much come to an end. SourceFed’s been around for 5 years, SourceFed Nerd and People Be Like less than that. Thinking about it now, five years isn’t that long but, man, it’s felt like a lifetime to me. I only came in halfway through those five years but it’s felt like these channels and the people on them have been in my life for a very long time. The sadness I feel towards the end of these channels feels like it’s worth 10 years of knowing them all, not 3.
By the way, I got sidetracked just now because I really wanted to know the exact year I discovered SourceFed and I want to thank my past self for using Twitter so profusely. 2014. I discovered them October of 2014.
(Thank you Joe Bereta for being attractive and hilarious and reeling me into this crazy world of SourceFed.)
When I found the Final SourceFed Video in my subscriptions this morning I didn’t want to watch it. As if I could suspend time and by not watching it I would delay the inevitable end of SourceFed.
When things you love end it sucks because there’s a feeling in the air where you know, you just know, that nothing will ever be like this again. These people aren’t dead or dying by any means, they’ll still be around killin’ it as per usual but all of them coming together making hilarious content, that was special and who knows if that will ever happen again.
So thanks SourceFed, SourceFed Nerd and People Be Like (and Nuclear Family and Super Panic Frenzy) for making me laugh until I couldn’t breathe on the daily. Thanks for always having content for me to watch while I was procrastinating. Which was… daily. Thank you for being the wonderful people that you are. Where ever you go next, I’ll be there. Like some crazy stalker, you can’t get rid of me that easily.
I still have so much to say about all this, you know. I’ve revived my Reddit just so I could post a bunch on r/SourceFed and I also keep tweeting everyone like a maniac. I’m going to watch the final livestream tomorrow at 8am (2pm their time) and it’s going to break me.
Know that I’m probably going to talk about this more in future blog posts and hey, welcome to my new blog. How ironic that my first post is about endings.
